ngayong october 25..

Habang ang mga kapitbahay naming ay nagkakantahan ng "Kailan" by MYMP at "Dahil Mahal na Mahal" Kita by Roselle Nava, ako naman ay nanonood lang ng E! News, kung saan maraming Hollywood News. O.o tapos, kinasal na pala si Giuliana [read as Juliana].. wala lang. XD

Akala ko, paggising ko, tatamarin ako.

Hindi pala. Haha.

 

Grabe, inutusan kasi ako na maglinis, meron daw kasing darating na bisita..edi, taranta ako. Haha. Tapos, ayun, naglinis na nga ako…Masaya, kasi andami kong nagawa. For the first time this season! Haha. Naghugas akong mga plato, nakapag-chop ako ng gulay at ito—nalinisan ko yung mala-Halloween naming bintana at grills at upuan sa labas. Haha. Nakakatuwa lang. XD [first time kasi sinipag ng ganito…sana,magtuluy-tuloy. Haha.]

Tapos nga pala. Marunong na ako gumamit ng MS Outlook! Haha, ngayon lang. XD sorry naman. Ö

Ayun,mejo updated na. hehe.saka pala, sa wakas, nakakita na ng OTH DVD si mommy!! XD

sayang naman.

I wasn't able to go to my high school friend's get together lunch last time, and even this day's movie marathon. It is just that I had to go to my dentist [whose long line always bothers me]… T_T I really had to go anyway because my teeth are becoming worse...T_T [by the way, I also missed the Fiesta at my college friend's house. I thought we were going to have a gathering again, but I was too lazy to get up early this morning. It was raining, how can I not? Ö

Anyway, I accompanied my mom to Natasha, Alabang branch, where she does her transactions and stuff, as a sideline to earn money. As she was roaming around for a possible gift for my cousins in Zamboanga, I was not on her side. [drama mode?! Joke. Gusto ko lang sana gumala, e, stuck naman ako sa dental clinic ng dentist ko.] Ate May was there, my mom's cousin who lives in Makati, and they were talking big time, long lines and innumerable topics. Maybe they just miss each other. Unlike my cousins and I, we are not that close. I even sometimes envy those of my classmates who live in a compound where they live with their relatives…and grow close bonds, unlike here in a village where there are people whom you don't want to get close with. And people who are hard to be close with. And people whom you really don't know and don't want to know.

 

Ayun lang.

Pero, Masaya pa rin ako ngayong pag-uwi namin kasi may available na bus diretso sa amin, at wala na masyadong lakarin. Haha.

kadayaan ng Zaido, “Click”, mga mata ko…at si God.

Zaido, yung pinaka-bagong kinaaabangan [raw] sa evening shows ng GMA, ay nagshooting kamakailan lang ng mga eksenag matatagpuan sa munisipyo at kabahayan… sa amin banda yun. Siyempre, kapag may shooting, maraming artista..at ang mga taong sabik sa artista [tulad ko] ay ginugustong makapunta sa site. Hehe. Tapos, dumating pa noon yung mga kaklase ko…gawa ng documentary na sinusumpa ko… Habang gumagawa pala kami overnight noong octover 19, nag-shooting pa pala sa mas malapit na lugar sa amin ang mga tao. Kaasar. Sayang. T_T

Yung sa Click naman, napanood ko yun kagabi sa HBO.. T_T [pero, mas appropriate pala na kaninang umaga].. Tapos, ayun, hagulgol na ako. T_T kasi naman..ganon pala ka-precious yung time. I mean, alam mo yun.. Masaya nga na mangyari na agad ang mga bagay sa future, pero, ang laki rin pala ng mami-miss mo kung hindi mo na-savor yung every moment…and these are what made me cry…[xc]

• • Teenager na pala yung mga anak niya
• • Patay na pala yung aso nila
• • Napahiwalay na pala siya ng tirahan sa pamilya niya
• • Naghiwalay na pala sila ng asawang mahal na mahal niya
• • Patay na pala yung ama niya
• • Kinasal na pala yung anak niya

Basta, napaka-drama. :(

Tapos, ganon yung feeling ko rin towards God. I mean, mamamatay na pala ako, hindi pa pala ako nakakapag-express ng love sa Kanya.. as in yung baptism and everything.. hindi ko man lang nagawang worthwhile yung buhay ko para sa Kanya… Basta. Ganong ka-dramahan. Hehe.

Tapos, andami kong naalala.napakayakap ako sa mommy at sa kapatid ko… nakapagpa-ring rin ako ng cp ng … ko.

Yung sa mata pala..ayun. kawawa na yung mga mata ko.. kasi, dikit na nga siya sa pc screen ko, tapos, nababasa-basa pa ng mga luha. pasma na sila. mabubulag na ako! T_T

joke lang. XD

I need a new layout. T_T

So bad… waaah!
ang tagal na kaya nitong huli kong layout..saka, nakakapagod na sa mata. Hehe.

Gusto ko sanang gumawa ng customized layout with navigations and all..kaya lang, ang hirap naman.. haha. Sorry for being such a loser with coding and layouts and things. Help!
ilang araw na kaya ako naghahanap ng magandang design na pwede kong gamitin, pero, walang nangyayari.. L gusto ko sana, sarili ko ring gawa… bina-base ko naman sa nakikita ko sa blogskins, pero, gosh. Ang hirap. T_T
Jobel, help!

Sembreak ka naman na,db? XD

Anyway,kanina..habang may quest ako na makagawa ng bagong layout, pumunta ako sa 'meeting' kunwari ng aking classmates para sa sembreak outing naming. Haay, kamusta naman. T_T pagdating ko ba naman don, group nila nesty sa documentary—at magpapasa [lang] pala sila ng [napakaganda, compared to ours] nilang project! T_T

Ayun, nainggit na naman ako. Haha. Pero, it won't be getting inside of me! Hope fully.

All is now done. And I hate it.

Our documentary about Coping with Stress is now complete and has been passed on to our teacher, at last. This was our final requirement for our subject psychology…Imagine, we were 19 in a group, and yet, only [almost] three were doing the editing part! Come on. What kind of groupings is that?! Even in the mere ‘filming’, we were only few…and you could just imagine how ‘hard’ it is to work for the project yourself!

I hate our leader, who only remembered us by the time that we have been saving our work in its perpetual place—the blank CD. He even said that he was ‘constantly’ checking out our project, when in reality, he’s just a man of words! From the start, I have hated him because he’s someone objective. He wants everything to revolve on his own, so it is his fault that many of our group mates are never interested with making it. Also, he was always defending his ideas, at the same time rejecting ours. How could a leader do that anyway?!

You’re such a loooooooosssssseerrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

How could you ask us when will we edit the video, when you know that it is due today?! How could you?! T_T

I hate you. You’re such a loser.

Those members who aren’t even helping—even with just lending us money, you’re all such losers! I hate you all!

Another thing about this event is that I was the host for the equipments. You know what I mean. It was in my family’s house, my family’s computer, my family’s bedroom, my family’s food budget…and everything else connected. But nobody contributed anything else except for the hard work that JR and Jam did...Could I mention Jinky’s camera? L

My other project at school was for NSTP, where my grades would be based upon. Would you like to know how fast I did that? Let’s say one hour. And it’s where my final grade would be coming from. T_T

It was a good thing that arnie, was always there to help us in any way. T_T

If only he could be one of my group mates, I certainly will not mind. Thanks for always being there. Thanks for not leaving us, especially me, on times like this.

God, sorry for posting these words, I just want to let it all out… I don’t want to hate anybody, but because they make me, at least, in here, they would know. T_T

Sorry for my sins. Thanks for lending us time to finish what we ought to do. For the everyday blessings and guidance and help, thanks. For giving us knowledge on what to do and also during our finals, thank You.

I will not do it again. Hope fully. T_T

1 month..

..na pala akong walang post. haha. sorry. ang tamad ko kasi, anyway, andami kong dapat alalahanin/ikwento. T_T

muntik nang maghiwalay ang mag-asawa sa pamilya namin.. T_T kasi naman, ang daming issues. T_T kelangan ko lang palang umiyak sa harap nung isa at sa tenga nung isa..ok na rin, at least, buo pa rin kami.. >.<

yung isa naman, ang aking school life. may crush ako, and i'm making it complicated pero, hindi naman talaga. masarap lang siguro maging close sa isa. when you would think of leaving someone named 'kune', you would not think again about it. parang, one step away lets you get back to him twice. weh. haha.

tapos, yung sa group ko nga pala sa documentary.. kaasar yung feeling leader. T_T pero, i don't want to get personal. ayoko kasing magka-away kami. but REALLY, i hate your leadership skills!! read: he's NOT considering suggestions, what's worse? he opposes it! as in contradiction to a higher level. okay lang sana kung ni-rereject lang niya e. tapos, siya pinapagawa namin, ngayon naman, galit siya kasi walang pakisama. hello!! T_T

sana lang, makakuha pa rin tayong maayos na grade--kahit hindi na mataas! T_T

anyway, matatapos na pala ang sem. ewan ko lang kung kelan. haha. talk about irresponsible studenthood! haha. [ano raw?!]

sa church:

ang isang batang dating umaaway-away sa akin, nagdi-discriminate and all, ay nagbago na.

binago na siya ni God. Ruth anne was baptized just last week. andun si jonn = bonding. ;) tapos, sabi raw ni pastor sa mommy ko, ako raw yung inaasahan niyang susunod.. :( haay, mahal ko si God, and all. pero, what if, iniisip ko lang na ganon? may radical change nga ba sa akin? [tamad pa rin ako e... ------does this even count?]

help. T_T