quick post lang..

quick post lang. :D

mag-aaral pa sa gestalt and existential psychology. hindi ko ata maintindihan e... o, magfee-feeling lang ako mag-aral? haha. joke.

anyway,katakawan ko kasi kaninang lunch e. natatawa ako. sa Jollibee kami kumain ni mommy---tamad kasi magluto for lunch. [tapos, nung dinner, ako nag-guisa ng corned beef! yey, marunong na ako..! ]

tapos, yun nga. hindi kasi ako makapaniwalang ito mga kinain ko:
** crispy chicken burger
** regular fries
** large drinks
** brownie fudge [tama ba?] na sundae
** nacho fries

yun, tinulungan naman ako ni mommy..pero, grabe! busog na busog ako.. waah! antakaw ko na..

at last. :D

after many months of idling around, at last, i have managed to finish "life guide...", a short story published in candymag's teentalk!

teehee...XD

unsophisticated and corny as i am, i have been smiling my heart out----haha, ang corny. tagalog na nga lang..O.o

bsta. hehe. kinikilig ako sa mga ka-corny-han ng mga bagay2.. wah! natatawa ako sa sarili ko..kasi naman, ako lang mag-isa kinikilig, tumatawa...kamusta naman,db? haha...

haay. as of now, i can only say that i'm really wanting to be with him. wah. i can't even send him a message.. i've got no prepaid load, and he's not available online...oh no.

take me somewhere else, PLEASE!!

i'm hating my school, really.

it only makes me sick of it. grabe.

with almost no classes, and with corny subjects..

i'm still wishing that i'd be at highschool, with my long-time friends.. with great, active and enthusiastic teachers on subjects that MATTER---unlike everywhere else...-.-

i've been really troubled with my sleeping, especially last night. i woke up at around 2am and haven't got back up to my sleep until around 4am. then, i had to wake up at 5am... so, in short, i hardly got to sleep.

when i did get to my school, i was horrified to know that there were no classes at all! the worst part is that we had to stay at school, because it was not officially announced. we had to stay until the whole day's dismissal, not knowing ALL of them won't attend our class.

so much for the "early-to-school" drama.

P.S.

a text from someone in the past.

"no love can hurt as much as the love that can never be.. And no thoughts can hurt as much as the thoughts of a love that could have been.."

random thoughts:

~~~~~~~bakit andaming nag-aadd sa friendster, kahit na friends ko lang ang kilala talaga nila?
~~~~~~~bakit ang hirap magplano ng isang date?
~~~~~~~bakit andaming late na kung mag-"care"?
~~~~~~~bakit ang hirap magbigay ng regalo sa lalake?
~~~~~~~bakit kelangan ko mag-nursing?
~~~~~~~bakit ngayon ko lang nakita yung sa STFAP ko?
~~~~~~~bakit ayaw nila asikasuhin yun?
~~~~~~~bakit ang pangit ng sistema sa pilipinas?
~~~~~~~bakit ang "ex" [???] ko, ambata na ng gf ngayon?
~~~~~~~bakit may debut pa ang mga lalake, wala namang handaan?

college na ako.

haay. i can only think of what my life could have been---sa UP... though,i can say, ok na rin. i've got lots of friends now in LIT... only thing that makes me wonder is the fact that there are actually people who were from such different, not to mention distant, places. i mean, i almost felt that i am in UP.. haha..

peace. it was because there are those who really are from palawan, paete, san pablo, sta.rosa.. really funny.. also, there was Rio, the girl whom almost everybody from my class talks about because of having someone...haha..if you know what i mean..XD

anyway, this day only brought about 2 hours of having proffesors in front of us. i mean, why did they waste my time? why do we have to attend our first day in almost 5 hours when all we have to do were only introductions to each other...

anyway, there were GOLDEN foods, i mean, hello! why do they have to be so expensive? O.o if i were in manila, maybe, i could accept that fact---but hello?! laguna lang to, haha. probinsya. bakit ang mahal? O.o

it was a good thing having jerick around..;) he treated us [me???] with a bunch of choco crinkles [yum2! :D] and also the fare back home... such a great guy..;) jerick was my first suitor in highschool...[old romance? lol.]

anyway, i'm REALLY eager for our jaunt to Makati, where i grew up! ;) we'd be going to The Fort, Greenbelt and somewhere else. hihi... i'm always loving the Urban life...XD malls, oh, malls.. why do i have to be away from you...?

if i were to study in UPM, one thing that i would really like to be doing is wander around Rob Manila... haay... shattered dreamS...

ORIENTATION.

grABe, kamusta naman..? 8.30-4 pm kami sa school..waah! antgal..orientation lang naman ang ginawa..O.o haay.sabi na,waste of time lang yun e...T_T

waah..anyway, i was there with friends whom i weren't close with for a long time---until this day came.;) hehe..

andaming nursing sa school ko. haay. andaming competitors sa mga bagay2..sana, i'll achieve my goal this time. i want to graduate with flying colors... i don't want to disappoint everyone anyway..

haay. ito na naman ako,nangangarap. i hate it this way, lagi na lang kasing heartbreak ang bagsak ko. as usual.

two years and a day..

so, it was two years. since i guaranteed someone to keep him for myself...and it ended up within 6 months. sad, but true.

well, actually, it wasn't really a real and serious oath, for i was still so young.. though, i wanted to keep it, things really do change, and for me, it happened all so fast.

regrets doesn't happen in this side of my life anyway, though, it disturbs just a LITTLE bit. you know what I mean...i'm happy with whom i am with anyway...;)

recently, we're having this short conversations. [really. short. concise. to the point.] the casual talk is always about, guess what?, UPM...until these words sprang up. "stop chasing other's dreams."

I do have mine, yet, what do you suppose i SHOULD do?? i can never bring my dream back to life again. i left it since i last cried on it...waaah! basta. hindi na ako pwedeng bumalik don. bakit? pag-aaralin mo ba ako? T_T

14But if you are bitterly jealous and there is selfish ambition in your hearts, don’t brag about being wise. That is the worst kind of lie. 15 For jealousy and selfishness are not God’s kind of wisdom. Such things are earthly, unspiritual, and motivated by the Devil. 16 For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and every kind of evil. ----james 3:14-16

and so, it happened.well, anyway. back to the topic.

nagtext siya, kung tanda ko pa raw ba yung notebook? [trivia. first gift yun na nagtatagal kung saan nakalista ang tracklist ng pinakaunang compilation ng mga dedicated na kanta para sa akin..at take note. meron pang tig-isang tula ang mga kantang iyon. haha...*nauna kasing natanggap ko na galing sa kanya ay LOAD. haha. lolz.*]

i looked for the notebook. i was told by someone else that his heart still shouts every word from that gift...then, he also mentioned the song "tensionado"...[actually,i never liked that song. haha, peace.]

first love.

i just thought of it a while ago, while we were on the bus ride home. it was, as always--during sundays when people around me gather up and say, "hindi ka tutuloy sa UP? sayang yun, BioChem!"

well, anyway, i have seen it all again unto me, but of course, in a whole new instance. as the heading implies, well, i have associated myself with someone lamenting over his/her first love.

i remember myself crying every night, as if i have lost some beloved fellow, and i always turn out waking up with chinky eyes...then, another mourning when nightfall comes.

such a way that lasted almost 6 months. well, at least, i got over that love by now... YET, another first love occurs. my love for UP. okay,so, i know that i'm totally overreacting, but you know, i just can't find a way to let it all out. i've been aspiring of this since i was younger...enough said.

the past

someone on my messenger list has been making me inquisitive recently..some time ago, it went out something like this:

"gusto kita, gusto mo ko. gusto ka nya, gusto mo siya! ang galing, di magkagustuhan na lang tayo!"

yet,i only summon up the things that have been happening on me almost a year ago.

when someone was actually coming and i'm wanting to let him in...yet the other won't want to leave---until now. but, i have made him leave. wala lang. i'm missing everything that also left. especially our friends. our church. our friendship. our loiters. his time. his tutorials. his everything. [huh? bakit ngayon lang?] meron din, nakakamiss yung car. haha. mga kayabangan. gtec. o2 jam. tapos, yung isa. koreanovelas, anime.

[hindi ba ako masaya ngayon?]

MASAYA. :D happy, ecstatic..and everything. but of course, whenever i go down to memory lane, it happens. and so, i have to bear.

what can i say? i'm so emotional...T_T

post note.

i've been spending my time at bianca's blog...argh. i can't help it. i feel like a stalker or something...

[with spongecola's dragonfly on the playlist...haay. i miss you.]