I think I was very productive yesterday :)

Yesterday, council mates JR and I had our own jaunt, if you may, in Manila... the thrill of being granted the chance of going out of town, without spending any money from your own pocket during schooldays! How I loved the concept. ;) Watching planes launching and landing gave me excitement, since I have always wanted to be an in-flight nurse, he wanted to be a pilot. Cooooool! ^^,

We were supposed to claim the pre-ordered plaques for the upcoming CAM (College of Allied Medicine) week, keenly searching for the store with the same address as with the given receipt, our only map.

Much to our surprise, the owner was not there, and he was actually already talking to one of the staff. We inquired about our orders, the phone guy requested for one of us and *wait for it* IT WAS NOT YET READY! After all the dusty, smoky traffic we have gotten ourselves into for an hour and a half, the stalking of a student whose school was supposed to be from across the street, the excitement of taking home the gold from the mine, *poof!* it burst my bubble.

So we had no choice left but to take responsibility of having another task: buying swim wear for the pageant's segment of showing off your body and having confidence on it. Of course, it was never a busy job. We wasted time scouting for shops nearby, and people were just directing us somewhere we were not looking for. Funny how we were instructed to find a certain place when it was actually what we skipped before heading somewhere else. XD

This is me, "trying out" the *gulps* one-piece bathing suit the contestants are about to wear, taking a photo for future reference :p We almost thought this moment would not arrive, since we only found the 90's type of bathing suit in the previous stalls we were in. And wow...how I wished I brought money for the trip. Everything on display was what my eyes were craving for. -.-

We were bargaining this violet suit for a lower price, which took a while, and when we finally decided on a price, that's when we knew that there was only 1 piece of the thing...and what? we needed 8 of the same kind!!!! -.-

.........

anyway, we headed back to school after a quick meal at the jeep, on the bus, after sleeping throughout the distance. 3 hours late! and I was assigned reporter for the day. how pathetic. -.-

I love my teacher for still allowing us to take part in her class that day *which was reportedly similar to a school program which began with our classmates singing The Prayer!!! :))))) funeeeh! XD

1 month..

..na pala akong walang post. haha. sorry. ang tamad ko kasi, anyway, andami kong dapat alalahanin/ikwento. T_T

muntik nang maghiwalay ang mag-asawa sa pamilya namin.. T_T kasi naman, ang daming issues. T_T kelangan ko lang palang umiyak sa harap nung isa at sa tenga nung isa..ok na rin, at least, buo pa rin kami.. >.<

yung isa naman, ang aking school life. may crush ako, and i'm making it complicated pero, hindi naman talaga. masarap lang siguro maging close sa isa. when you would think of leaving someone named 'kune', you would not think again about it. parang, one step away lets you get back to him twice. weh. haha.

tapos, yung sa group ko nga pala sa documentary.. kaasar yung feeling leader. T_T pero, i don't want to get personal. ayoko kasing magka-away kami. but REALLY, i hate your leadership skills!! read: he's NOT considering suggestions, what's worse? he opposes it! as in contradiction to a higher level. okay lang sana kung ni-rereject lang niya e. tapos, siya pinapagawa namin, ngayon naman, galit siya kasi walang pakisama. hello!! T_T

sana lang, makakuha pa rin tayong maayos na grade--kahit hindi na mataas! T_T

anyway, matatapos na pala ang sem. ewan ko lang kung kelan. haha. talk about irresponsible studenthood! haha. [ano raw?!]

sa church:

ang isang batang dating umaaway-away sa akin, nagdi-discriminate and all, ay nagbago na.

binago na siya ni God. Ruth anne was baptized just last week. andun si jonn = bonding. ;) tapos, sabi raw ni pastor sa mommy ko, ako raw yung inaasahan niyang susunod.. :( haay, mahal ko si God, and all. pero, what if, iniisip ko lang na ganon? may radical change nga ba sa akin? [tamad pa rin ako e... ------does this even count?]

help. T_T

desperate. rants.

wala lang. hindi ko lang alam kung bakit ganito...May 15, 2007 ata ang dahilan.

i think, the only thing that keeps me going, for now, is the fun fact that i've got real friends.. a supporting ..[arnie]?

anlungkot ko kanina, as in nung inumpisahan ko siya e. tapos, ngayon.. edit2,.. haha.pero, ewan, yun nga.

as i look back, katulad kanina..i remember someone joking about admiring me. haaay nakooo... pero, ewan, it gives me flutterbies. haha

anyway, i'm currently watching The Correspondents. andon si Mikaela Fudolig, and she said something like "meron akong kakilala na matalino, pero, dahil restricted yung curriculum nila, they don't go beyond"...meron din daw siyang mga kakilala na tinatamad na mula sa kanilang katalinuhan, kaya hindi nalilinang...

ngayong teacher na siya, gusto raw sana niyang i-educate yung mga tao.. sayang raw kasi ang mga bagay2...

haay, siya na ang Summa cum laude.. 1.099 ang average? kamusta ka? T_T

"Only 16 years old, Fudolig is the youngest student to be graduated by the University in the recent years and one of only two admitted to UPD without a high school diploma and without taking the UP College Admission Test. She was only 11 years old and a sophomore at the Quezon City Science High School when she was granted permission to enroll at UPD as a non-degree student, having volunteered for a prototype Early College Placement Program the UPD College of Education was spearheading. After earning remarkable grades for an academic year, the Department of Education (DepEd) endorsed her admission to UPD, which was approved by the UP Board of Regents on May 30, 2003."

-----naalala ko lang yung sabi ni **. la lang. school nila yun e. quesci... tapos, ngayon, naunahan pa siya maka-graduate ng college. hehe.. XP

anyway, balik sa The Correspondents.. andami ngang pinagdaraanan ng Gifted Child. la lang.. nagfee-feeling ako. haha. there's something going on inside me. nyek.

bakit ganon? si Shaira Luna, inggit ako sa kanya noon e.. galing kasi.. tapos, ngayon, photographer na siya.. maganda naman.. gusto ko rin sa De La Salle University. hehe. tapos, photography.. nakita ko yung mga pose na pinapagawa niya sa mga clients niya,, wala lang.. prang ang gaganda.. tapos, yun nga raw, prang, she let go the memory of the past.. ngayon lang daw siya prang nagiging bata.. o.o

haay. dahil sa kapapanood ko, kung ano2 na naman pumapasok sa isip ko.. haay.

two years and a day..

so, it was two years. since i guaranteed someone to keep him for myself...and it ended up within 6 months. sad, but true.

well, actually, it wasn't really a real and serious oath, for i was still so young.. though, i wanted to keep it, things really do change, and for me, it happened all so fast.

regrets doesn't happen in this side of my life anyway, though, it disturbs just a LITTLE bit. you know what I mean...i'm happy with whom i am with anyway...;)

recently, we're having this short conversations. [really. short. concise. to the point.] the casual talk is always about, guess what?, UPM...until these words sprang up. "stop chasing other's dreams."

I do have mine, yet, what do you suppose i SHOULD do?? i can never bring my dream back to life again. i left it since i last cried on it...waaah! basta. hindi na ako pwedeng bumalik don. bakit? pag-aaralin mo ba ako? T_T

14But if you are bitterly jealous and there is selfish ambition in your hearts, don’t brag about being wise. That is the worst kind of lie. 15 For jealousy and selfishness are not God’s kind of wisdom. Such things are earthly, unspiritual, and motivated by the Devil. 16 For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and every kind of evil. ----james 3:14-16

and so, it happened.well, anyway. back to the topic.

nagtext siya, kung tanda ko pa raw ba yung notebook? [trivia. first gift yun na nagtatagal kung saan nakalista ang tracklist ng pinakaunang compilation ng mga dedicated na kanta para sa akin..at take note. meron pang tig-isang tula ang mga kantang iyon. haha...*nauna kasing natanggap ko na galing sa kanya ay LOAD. haha. lolz.*]

i looked for the notebook. i was told by someone else that his heart still shouts every word from that gift...then, he also mentioned the song "tensionado"...[actually,i never liked that song. haha, peace.]