A Slap in the Face

If you would ask me how I feel right now in this current job function I have, I would need to be honest with you.

I am not happy.
In fact, I am disappointed, or should I say, I feel degraded.

Instead of feeling empowered, or accomplished, that someone like me who's in my first overseas job and just a few months before my first year here in Dubai, I feel like I am abused yet neglected. I feel abused because people who are with the same job function with me are with better compensation, greater benefits and less stress. I do some of the manager's function, and what? I'm just compensated with his housing allowance, or maybe not even close. My healthcard is downgraded to a meager amount that I shouldn't be using it at all.

I know I don't have that enough experience compared with them, but why do they keep delegating tasks more than I should have been receiving? Why should I keep two functions with me when it is clearly stated that I should be with this other department now?

If you are in UAE, please help me land at least a Free Zone job. Pleaseeee :( 

dear blog,

i really want to earn money right now. -.-

currently listening to migraine.

I feel down. I just got 78 for my Filipino quiz which nobody believed to be THAT bad. I know I have been feeling DOWN since earlier this day but I cannot really discern what has been happening inside of me...and trust me, you wouldn't actually care.

Our preliminary exam is like 1 day away so I really have to study.. Still, I chose to be with my bestfriend, my blog.. and I admit it - I need to study.

But I can't concentrate because I have been having my eyes on a new phone. Walkman phone + 3.2 mp camera is, I think, somewhere near my reach, so I have been thinking of availing it... but I couldn't even tell it to my dad because I know that we really are having our last coins emptying every money-containing-wallets-and-coin-banks [which is actually overstated,but is almost what we really are] and also because I have not been considering communications to him [for almost about 5 days] until last night when I sent him a text message...

can't sleep!

would you imagine I actually slept late last night like 11 pm already and have risen at 2am?! It's earlier that I am actually awake because I'm having some discomfort knowing that I haven't studied for our return demo regarding vital signs! hahaha...

After my study from 2-4, I tried to sleep like in one hour so that I could regain my energy and something else I need, but that doesn't help much because I was having like butterflies in my stomach and was cold, so I thought I need to relax a bit, and here I was updating my blog! [Talk about addiction.]

You may ask why, but it was because we bought my own stethoscope in Bambang, where everywhere I look is like a store with medical supplies only and you cannot look at other places without seeing any medical equipment! hahaha...

Good thing we have bought what we should at the right place, I might say, since the store dealer was suggesting us not the expensive one but the best one when it comes to quality. :D It was Baxtel. In the first store that we went, the only suggestion was that the more expensive a set was, it is more durable and all...

Anyway, my mom and I also have bought a pair of white shoes since the one I am using is actually almost torn to pieces right away... o.o

I was back! XD

Yes, it had been long since I haven't got back to LB, with my friends. I think the last time was June 9 because we actually planned something in such a short notice, I might say. :)

Anyway, it has been one heck of a day since I actually got up from bed at around 11 am, and therefore did things later than the appointed time... I have even missed out on doing actual things lately. Too lazy to do them, but I am having a hard time coping up to my daily deeds...

And yes, I was back at LB just this afternoon, with my mom, who's the reason why I was able to go. Though my original plan was to spend time with my friends and do stuff like photocopying of our topic [it's way cheaper in LB maybe because there are so many competitors] but I missed out on doing it [like I said earlier] because I didn't know what topics to photocopy...whatever.

In our rented place for the business orientation my mom and I have getting ourselves into, I saw Cathy, Abbie and Claire in one of the tables and they decided to leave promptly after seeing me, HOW RUDE! Unlike Sijey and Jhezer who aren't actually the people I am most expecting to come with me, they are better friends, when it comes to these situations, than those I already had.

Can I just say I am thankful because they have participated openly and not just like others who left without any reason at all. And are they really what you call friends? Not for me.

You see, it was only my first time to actually personally talk with Jhezer, who was not even from my high school. He is from MSI, and whose clique is one of my former fans. I think, and honestly, he was also crushing on me from my high school! hahaha... XD and i'm like Polly. XD It felt like I have been passed down from bro to bro with Lemuel, Carmichael, Alec, Dan and Jhezer within their circle of friends because all of them shared a common factor. O.o

Cesar Ramirez, on the other hand, is just plain friendly + PG. if you know what I mean. ;) And he has shown up his support just for the sake of food. XD okay, so I'm acting rude. But really, it's sentimentally heartwarming that he showed up for my invitation even if we're not CLOSE.. we don't even talk at school! haha..

Still, I had a great time...Though I was not able to finish my Philo powerpoint, I hadn't photocopied my Filipino lectures and didn't see my friends. haha. [whatever.]

I'm so happy, I am already watching GG's episode 14! I have finished 4 episodes last night, would you believe?! Talk about addiction!

busy

I've really been busy. Have been to different places in just one week, and not the typical home-calamba crossing. anyway. have a nice day!

by the way, i'm also starting to have my blog at a different host. still,thanks for the visits! :)