desperate. rants.

wala lang. hindi ko lang alam kung bakit ganito...May 15, 2007 ata ang dahilan.

i think, the only thing that keeps me going, for now, is the fun fact that i've got real friends.. a supporting ..[arnie]?

anlungkot ko kanina, as in nung inumpisahan ko siya e. tapos, ngayon.. edit2,.. haha.pero, ewan, yun nga.

as i look back, katulad kanina..i remember someone joking about admiring me. haaay nakooo... pero, ewan, it gives me flutterbies. haha

anyway, i'm currently watching The Correspondents. andon si Mikaela Fudolig, and she said something like "meron akong kakilala na matalino, pero, dahil restricted yung curriculum nila, they don't go beyond"...meron din daw siyang mga kakilala na tinatamad na mula sa kanilang katalinuhan, kaya hindi nalilinang...

ngayong teacher na siya, gusto raw sana niyang i-educate yung mga tao.. sayang raw kasi ang mga bagay2...

haay, siya na ang Summa cum laude.. 1.099 ang average? kamusta ka? T_T

"Only 16 years old, Fudolig is the youngest student to be graduated by the University in the recent years and one of only two admitted to UPD without a high school diploma and without taking the UP College Admission Test. She was only 11 years old and a sophomore at the Quezon City Science High School when she was granted permission to enroll at UPD as a non-degree student, having volunteered for a prototype Early College Placement Program the UPD College of Education was spearheading. After earning remarkable grades for an academic year, the Department of Education (DepEd) endorsed her admission to UPD, which was approved by the UP Board of Regents on May 30, 2003."

-----naalala ko lang yung sabi ni **. la lang. school nila yun e. quesci... tapos, ngayon, naunahan pa siya maka-graduate ng college. hehe.. XP

anyway, balik sa The Correspondents.. andami ngang pinagdaraanan ng Gifted Child. la lang.. nagfee-feeling ako. haha. there's something going on inside me. nyek.

bakit ganon? si Shaira Luna, inggit ako sa kanya noon e.. galing kasi.. tapos, ngayon, photographer na siya.. maganda naman.. gusto ko rin sa De La Salle University. hehe. tapos, photography.. nakita ko yung mga pose na pinapagawa niya sa mga clients niya,, wala lang.. prang ang gaganda.. tapos, yun nga raw, prang, she let go the memory of the past.. ngayon lang daw siya prang nagiging bata.. o.o

haay. dahil sa kapapanood ko, kung ano2 na naman pumapasok sa isip ko.. haay.

katakot. T_T

pero, hahabaan ko na rin. andaming thoughts e... parang nasa highway... nagpapabilisan. [ok. corny.]

nway, kanina ay ang pinakaunang araw kung kailan bigla akong gininaw, nahilo at ang tiyan ay nakaramdam ng sakit.. hindi naman ako gutom, kasi, araw2 naman na akong ganon e.. o.o haay. nu kaya meron? Hyperacidity? T_T

dahil nga don. nag-skip ako ng class.. hindi ako umattend sa last class ko for the day [NSTP] kung saan, perfect si Nestydel Rozon. [naks! special mention.. ;)] ilan kaya ako don? T_T haha..

ang sweet pa man din ng mga pangyayari [joke.:D] kanina, kasi, nasa gitna ako ng 2 cute [daw] from the class. e, mejo ka-close ko rin kasi. haha. masipag sila mag-aral e. so,dikit ako,, pra mahawaan. haha.. ;) [ako nga pala ang highest sa english. 46/50. nyek.]

tapos, pagkauwi ko, napagalitan pa ako! pano ba naman kasi, baka raw mas masama yung mangyari sa akin.. pano raw kung sa daan pa ko mahilo.. or something.. T_T

buti naman at iningatan ako ni God.. saka, medyo ayos na ako ngayon.. i hope so. :D

NAKAKATAKOT NA PART:

[kaya ako nakapag-post ng ganito.. T_T] meron daw kasing kumakalat na balita, dito sa Calamba... kwento na nag-alarma sa lahat ng schools sa paligid... T_T here it goes... just recently, July 13, 07.. merong 2 3rd yr hs from Calamba Institute na naglalakad pauwi---sa tabi ng national road.. tapos, biglang merong isang van na tumigil at kumuha sa kanila... :( sinuntok pa nga raw yung tiyan nung isa, kasi nagpumiglas siya... dahil pinilit silang pumasok sa loob ng van, nakita nila ang iba pang mga estudyanteng kapwa highschool---mga nanghihina... meron daw isang galing sa St. Benilde Int'l School at isang galing rin sa Barretto [tamang spelling ba?] National High School [dito lang yun sa calamba..private at public schools, respectively.] e, habang traffic sa kanto ng national road, don sa intersection ng pa-manila at pa-south, naglakas-loob yung taga-Calamba Institute---yung hindi nasuntok sa tiyan---na tumakas... nakalabas naman silang magkasama, tapos, bigla raw nagsisigaw... e, dahil nga intersection yun, with traffic lights and policemen, biglang nag-speed up yung van, kaya harurot daw yung van.. kaya hindi nahabol ng pulis... T_T at kanina nga raw, almost 1 week after what happened, pumasok na yung student.. tapos, yun.. pinaalam na sa mga schools dito sa calamba... [though, nalaman ko lang ito sa kapatid kong grade 6... haay.. gusto kong mag-service ulit! T_T] waaah...

happy. :x

well, who wouldn't bE? after seeing your 'significant other', won't you be in such a bliss? just a look upon his eyes brings you so much joy for having him, and what more, if you're with him, and you're in your own world?

ok, so, i admit it. i'm not good at making people feel so much emotions with my writing unlike almost all people...

but,at least, most of you know what i mean... right?

anyway, tomorrow will be the premiere of the latest Harry Potter movie,..it's a good thing that i was invited to watch it...with most of my new close friends... ;) [though, we all know that preliminary exams are due next week---most especially the scrapbook...T_T]