open letter?

Today was a drastic moment in my life. This Sunday, I thought of having a happy post about the Cheesy Pops, the Calamares and the Kare-Kare that we did have just this two days before, when we were in Parañaque. I was happy of eating things that doesn't usually lying on the table whenever I am only at home.

But then, I thought wrong.

Why are there inconceivable things that are bound to happen, when you know you didn't want them? especially, if you know for yourself, and promised, too, that you won't do?

Sorry.

another day with him. :x

dahil [siguro] sa drama ko kagabi, refer to the previous post, dumalaw siya dito... nagtagal nga siya e...

mula 1pm ata hanggang roughly past 6.30 siya nandito... la lang.. happy....

unhappy.

I’ve been reviewing like crazy, but still, I find time for myself.
To devote myself to God.
To have some yakking with my friend.
To contribute to my household some chores.
And to have some time for him.

I have long logged into my account for instant messaging.
I have waited for him to login to his, too.
I have made myself ready to have long times talking to someone I miss.
But then, he just made me review again.

And so, I am depressed.
I am desperate.
I am unhappy.
I am miserable.
I am gloomy.

Can you blame me?

MIDTERMS.....

Midterms started my day. First one to agonize is my chemistry Lecture—for we also have Laboratory. I admit that I have not studied my lessons and exercises that well, not until I was on my way to school, reading my photocopies of the past lessons in my ridden jeep.

I have taken the course for granted, really, and I am regretting for that. PRELIMS were exactly what you define “simple” and “easy” and that made me think that MIDTERMS will be the same. Unfortunately, it was not. It was as hard, REALLY hard. I never knew what to do, especially that I only reviewed for the definitions and formulae to be remembered (those, which are recurrently mentioned in most of the practices.)

Can you imagine having the compounds written at its actual name, and not as its chemical formula? In addition to that, how could I predict the products of the reactants anyway? I never knew. I have studied Balancing Equations and Redox Reactions, yet I was never sure that I have configured out the right symbols for the compounds. HOW COULD I ever pass?

Nevertheless, it was a relief that it was not only I that was tormented by the situation, but also my classmates! Haha!

Subsequent to the above situation, it was in Psychology where I also have not studied. BOOHOO. tell me: how to deal with flunking exams and dreaded answers? I have only gotten 31/50. boohoo. boohoo.

I know, this is a lesson that I must live by: never underestimate things that go your way. They can be easy at most times, but they can also be rough and THREATENING!!

mondays are the sweetest.... ;)

starting next week, there will be no classes for 3 consecutive Mondays, [woohoo!!! isn't my title correct?! i told you so!! haha...XD]

the events responsible for such a hearty cheerful event are the following:

~~~a seminar for teachers

~~~the national holiday for Ninoy and

~~~another thing. [i don't know really. ]

anyway, it has been a drowsy day, in which early in the morning, we have almost overslept.. then, there's that moment when I almost slept in our last subject [where the teacher was situated in the back part of the room...]

know what kept me going? Candy Mag! haha... it's a good thing that Daniel Radcliffe was on the cover, hence, Des wouldn't buy that issue...

TRIVIA: I do read Candy Mag every month, but only through Llendl, my friend back in hs, who collects them since 2004..

Anyway, I miss my hs friends. It's unfair that they do see each other any time they have vacant hours, while as for me, I'm left with

my day.

we were answering our Lab printouts when all of a sudden, my groupmate told me this:

"alam mo ba kung bakit ako lumalayo? ayoko kasing ma-develop.."

nothing. i just can't help not to remember.. it was such a statement I couldn't help not to notice. XP we were in serious air when he said that.. also, earlier that day, he was actually ignoring me... [because, i opened the topic about the concert in which he might also be able to attend... o.o]

at around 1.30 pm, while waiting for my last class at 2 pm, a group of guys went into my way and one of them asked...

Guy: "miss, pwede bang mahingi number mo?"

Kate: "no. :)"

he went away, then returned with a statement readied...

"tanda mo ba nung acquaintance, yung naghahagis rin ng lobo...?"

Kate: "alin? yung maintenance?..*hehe*"

"hindi... yung nakikipaglaro..."

Kate: "hindi ko maalala..."

"sige, yung number mo na lang..."

Kate: "wala akong load. :)"

"ok lang... hindi talaga?"

Kate: "OO."

anyway, just about late this day, and early this evening, jenny, my long-time friend who goes to school at UPB just went back to her place---in the north. it was such a grievous [arte?!] moment, because we know that it would be a long time again for us to meet soon... plus, think of the busy moments THEY would be having. [asa pa sa akin. ako?! maging busy sa school namin?! o.o]

anyway, i have just read his blog...blogs actually. ang sweet....>.<

and i just couldn't stop falling...:x

random updates... :D

umuwi na si jenny galing baguio...! haha.... XD wala man siyang pasalubong, mas na-appreciate ko pa rin na dumating siya, at mahal na mahal pa rin niya kami... naks. :D

-------andaming kwento, pero, pinakagusto ko yung tungkol sa org jackets! haha... [usually kasi, org shirts lang.. haha...

magkasama kami ni arnie kanina. hihi... [kinikilig :x]

may manicure at pedicure si ditse!!

naka-maong pants si trish!

nagpakain si faith!

cars.

it's a frustration when i see one.
because, we can't afford even for a used sedan.
because, we're the only one with none at most places.

whenever it comes across me, whether it's a luxury car or just a sedan or suv or the like, it just sweeps me off my feet.

it makes me want to have one.

it makes me want to wish that i'm from a different family.

that i'm from a different place.

having these luxuries.

haha. drama. kasi naman, naalala ko lang yung kahapon, patawid ako ng crossing... kung saan, maraming tao at kotse ang naglalaro sa daan..

tapos, merong isang shining shimmering new sedan--Mercedes Benz pa, tapos, ayun. hindi na ako nakatawid. naiwan na ako sa tabi, habang nagsisilakad na yung mga taong tatawid rin. la lang. adik. haha. daya, bakit pa kasi ako naging interesado don? e, can't afFORD naman kami... hehe...

pero, ok na rin siguro. at least, hindi ako yung palaboy-laboy sa kalye.

at least, hindi ako yung taong hindi makapag-aral dahil sa kahirapan.

at least, meron akong magulang.

at least, meron akong pc.

at least, meron akong matinong pag-iisip. [? hehe...]

at least, meron akong kinakain.

[[speaking, andami ko nakain ngayong hapon pa lang.. o.o

---*hot loops' blueberry cheesecake

---*julie's bakery's cinnamon bun [3]

---*calamares [6 pieces]

---*shrimp tempuraSsSsSs.... [ganan kadami] tapos, napakaraming tubig na nainom. hehe.. XD]]